imagine that only which you can't

LITERATURE

1. The Language of New Media by Lev Manovich
"...He discusses new media's reliance on conventions of old media, such as the rectangular frame and mobile camera, and shows how new media works create the illusion of reality, address the viewer, and represent space."
tags:{book, media theory, media history}

(history of media is important when you are trying to create something new in this field)

2. Fabric of the Cosmos by Brian Greene
"...His driving question in The Fabric of the Cosmos, then, is fundamental: "What is reality?" Over sixteen chapters, he traces the evolving human understanding of the substrate of the universe, from classical physics to ten-dimensional M-Theory."
tags:{ book, physics, science}

(know the laws of the universe and how they work before approaching them and trying to skew them)

3. Six Memos for the Next Millenium by Italo Calvino
"...Each lecture dedicates itself to an aspect of literature that Calvino finds crucial: "Lightness," or the aspect of language that speaks directly to a reader and is not always weighed down with intellectual metaphor but with direct communication; "Quickness," or the immediacy of literature - the way it cuts through random detail to get to the necessary; "Exactitude," or the precision of language (and when it needs imprecision); "Visibility," or the power of imagery to convey ideas; and "Multiplicity," or the complexity of content."

tags:{ book, internal theory, philosophy }

(know how something works internally and the bases of what humans will believe you)

4. Transcription of Lecture by David Ross, San Jose State University, March 2, 1999
"...One of the things about the web that I like a lot is how quickly you can change things. All of us have been involved in printing. What a thrill it is to change something and not have to throw away 300 boxes of paper. The whole idea of its permeability, mutability, disposability, I like that. One of the things I disposed of was the title of my talk tonight, well really mutated it. It's now, "Net.art in the age of Digital Reproduction."

tags:{article, internet art, internal theory}

(the internet is one of the biggest sources we can approach for media dispersal, it's a good one to get acclimated with for a media artist)

ONLINE SOURCES

5. rhizome.org
"...Rhizome supports the creation, presentation, and preservation of contemporary art that uses new technologies in significant ways."

tags:{innovative art, online art community, future}

{know what is out there for competition, what's been done, and what can be achieved}

ARTISTS/INSPIRATION

6. http://www.wefeelfine.org/

tags:{innovative art, online art community, programming}

7. Ryan, directed by Chris Landreth
"In Ryan we hear the voice of Ryan Larkin and people who have known him, but these voices speak through strange, twisted, broken and disembodied 3D generated characters... people whose appearances are bizarre, humorous or disturbing. Although incredibly realistic and detailed, Ryan was created and animated without the use of live action footage, rotoscoping or motion capture...but instead from an original, personal, hand animated three-dimensional world which Chris calls 'psychological realism'."

tags:{animation, film, perception}

8. Andrea Gibson, slam poet

tags:{slam poetry, change, passion}

9. Zoe Beloff, media artist

tags:{new media art, technique, perception}

10. Dimitri Daniloff

tags:{photography, statements, image}

11. Hermit and Six Toes by Victor Palavin

tags:{short story, perception, magic realism}

12. peter callesen- paper works and media art

tags:{paper art, perception, dimensions}

Today I will be filming a stop motion animation installation creation birthed in the shower by my imagination.

i'm so cool.

Impressionism painting rotoscoping-ish type moving mesmerizing in a frame causing dizzy impression imprints on in your vision landmarks.

storyboard

1-checkmate- a mouth saying checkmate, turning into a vortex, you fall into it and then the body starts to turn inside out and into a checkerboard.

2-you looking at it and seeing a reflection inside your eye of the huge "checkmate" of him looming over you in a shape

3-he slowly starts to prod at you but you don't move.

4-he starts to shoot chess pieces at you and you dodge them

5-the horse turns into a horse, whips mane onto cornea

6-close up of mane scratching cornea

7-the vortex maniacally running against the horizon, camera moving erratically to show scared movement.

8- hypnotic checkerboard stretching forever

i almost want to destill it to this:
9-The juice turned to wood and the dripping heart fell against the hard glass of a chessboard nail.
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so, this is very complex. yes. it goes against the grain on my "simple and effectiveness". i see major beauty in simplicity. sometimes though, you really need to be hit

oh and I found a new surrelist modern artist who is amazing!
...and after looking at his stuff i just found the perfect peice to inspire me.

Vladimir Kush

"Chess"
In Lewis Carroll’s classic tale, Alice journeys to Wonderland? Where straight streams run across the land and living fences separate the space between the streams into equal squares. “In my opinion, Wonderland strikingly resembles a chessboard,” said Alice. “This whole world is chess! This is one huge match!” Sometimes, the players are people who want to control their fellow man like they would chess pieces (considering them to be pawns). Sometimes, a chess match is played between God and Satan. The sequence of black and white squares symbolizes destiny, dishing out curses and blessings. Chess is the combination of eternal collision of good and evil, light and darkness, brain and heart. This is reflected in the picture, where stallions stampede in the background, and wispy, neverending towers symbolize the unconstrained power of immigration. In the foreground, a heated battle between warriors ensues in the name of kings. The 64-sqare board originated from the four-sided (8*8) board of the Hindu god Shiva who controlled cosmic forces on the board. In the traditional Hindu version of chess, there were four players (because there were four sides). Players would roll dice in order to determine who would make the next move; both logic and fate were mixed into this game.

(  MORE AMAZING IMAGES THAT HAVE INSPIRED ME INTENSLY )

Research Proposal

What do you intend to do?

Create universes using After Effects techniques and stop motion.

Why is the work important?

Important for me because I will explore new technical realms that can help me set up physical rules more easily on the screen and have better control of what’s happening.

Important for the viewer because they will more easily be at will to fall for my language and trust my on screen rules more. This will aid at making believable breaks.

What has already been done?

Outside of my brain, many things using such techniques, including layers and stop motion photography and graphical matching.

How are you going to do the work?

Trying not to use a video camera. Using my photo camera. Using scanning techniques of hand drawn/MAGAZINE CUT OUT/ stock photography/ my photography. After Effects and photoshop. Weird.

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Idea 1


I wrote this today after a wonderful conversation yesterday, somehow it will coalesce within my video world someday.

We were playing chess and then he won you see.
“Checkmate!” his mouth slowly formed the words and I thought I was hallucinating but no because the subconscious is valid and there is no need to think that some of the world can be a hallucination when all it is is imagination and you can’t really say what is real creation so the vortex emerged from within his deep throat within its depths and far below where reality as I was just about to begin seeing it started to materialize. He turned inside out his whole self and coughed himself up from the mouth part, a huge whirling spiral of chess board inflated and expanded into around me and I was a bit scared but did not know how to react. So I just stared right at him, right at his ominous checkmate and did not care, did not let it get into my skin and so suddenly he started to shoot me with chess pieces from within the spiral and I dodged them like the matrix, like I was chosen all along and he didn’t know what to do so as the last piece came out, the horse, it started to turn vast huge and real so real its mane brushed right up against my cornea and I squealed as it stung my eyeball with its black and white tang. He galloped around me and the whirling chessboard spiral sat atop this chessboard horse as they were still connected in the middle but oddly disjointed together, moving along the field like uncomfortable highschool lovers for the first time, gallop causing a teeter and a totter and the chess board bent and flipped through the air and he seemed to be in absolution for a moment and I in horror. The point of view was distantly holding the horizon and the sunset was bright red like the blood that was rushing to all new parts of my brain like the blood he was causing me to abbreviate with my thoughts and the bloody confusion but clarity his voice was causing me to acquire slowly and unconsciously. He was trying to kill me but make it suicide. He was trying to kill me deep my own bottomless longevity. HE was trying to kill me and the drop of crimson blood against his checkered eyeball showed that indeed it did not happen how it should but once in a while strikes. You see for so long the squares went on and on sideways stretching always but then the verve that was given a crisp shock of red into their two eyes, one black and one white and there was suddenly a whole new world a whole new maybe, new hows and whens and all was full of density and valor. The juice turned to wood and the dripping heart fell against the hard glass of a chessboard nail.
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Idea 2

A man's skin is falling off. He tried to gather it but he can't. He is frustrated but happy, he can't go against nature. His skin falls off, cracks off, breaks off and runs away, turning to winged birds and creatures that crawl and creep and explode and grow. He gathers then all and tried to paste them back but they don't quiet fit. [Jill-His head explodes and breaks apart, leaving a heart].

To combine wtih my other idea, this skin begins from all angles. You're not sure what it is at first, then it all omes together at the end. Maybe you don't even realize this is a person right away, it's just peices of the world, like the peices that you choose to accept and see, strange peices that don't necessarily make sense, but make sense to you. Some make complete sense, like a kitchen sink. Some don't, like an abstract shape. But each one flies and crawls and coalesces into a man whose skin is falling off. Maybe it's not actually falling off, but falling on.

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Idea 3

I want to make a film in 24 hours. Possibly with a video camera, but probably just with not.

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Idea 4

keep working on my long film piece script, scenes, to film this summer possibly. About selling time.

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Timeline

Week 1- this week
Storyboard everything by Thursday
OD on creative cow
Make sketches, scan them in, try different techniques
Look up stock photography sites for possible useage
Take pictures if needed, studies of location

Week 2- next week
OD on creative cow some more if needed
Make more sketches, animate them, start producing each scene
Think about sound

Week 3-week after that
Work work work on after effects animation!
Finish sound

Week 4-week after the one before this one
Work like crazy. Put everything together. Make sure it works.

May 6th due



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TECHNIQUE RESEARCH! yay youtube....

This was a big inspiration to me, a film make by Mollie in 453 last year!



Weird but I like the beg/ends


I think Alexis showed us a short thing on how to do this:


This one I saw a while ago


I like how they morph, but I cant really draw.


Human flipbook. Not bad.


I don't know but I liked it

"almost there but not quite"

this is one of the best states in existence, and i think if i'd be stuck there forever that is ok.

now i don't mean this for life, but for that feeling of inspiration and of want and of RVENEEYA [meaning literally tearing through, an emotion i can't describe in english.]

i've been thinking about my grandpa. i think about him a lot.

but this feeling is a wonderful state because it's something that doesn't have to finish and if you can be ok with that, then your life will be made. i think the biggest problem people have after college, as sarah mentioned, is being stuck at a job with no way out.

this overwhelming video idea came upon me, threading off of an earlier post about skin falling off. your skin biologically is always flaking off anyway. you're leaving marks on the world constantly. you're in a constant state of change and revelation physically as well as mentally. you never have skin that is completely new, or completely old, you're always almost, becoming, almost there but not quiet.

it's falling and you can't control it, but you have to learn to let it go. up.
it's light.

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"However, I am also extremely interested in pushing my conceptual details to the reals of impossibility. As I mentioned in a blog entry over the break, I came to a slow realization that I can create whole universes within a film and so I would like to exploit this ability to its furthest and take my viewer as far down my black hole as possible."

[last quarter's eval which i saved and went back to]

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"-what if we could see life from 4 different angles, how would that change things. 4 angles is the shortest sharp distance around a circle, which is 360 around everything that is happening at one moment.
-let all things happen at one time, maybe 4-6 different screens with obvious cues that it is all happening at the same time. or completely different places, but similar moments where, say they all sit down and the tv/radio is playing the same thing. order in chaos. "

[from nov 21st]

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all i think about is stop motion and learning more about after effects. i want this to be my study. i've thought about my sudden urge to delve into video installation and i don't really know if that was the right way for me to go, yet. i really want to complete a short film that speaks the way i want it to. composing your thoughts. directing your neurons to fire wrong. out of sync. beauty. beauty in something that you don't understand why but it is.

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old people are beautiful

i will be working on a project similar to that during this month.

his skin was falling and he tried to gather it all up.

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really though, i do want to sell time.
and i want to use stop motion to do it.
kind of like this guy:

DAVID RUSSO IS GENIOUS


and this guy was one of my main artistic inspirations, but after this short little video, even more so:




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I only have 4 weeks for this:

Week 1 April 7-13th
Week 2 April 14-20th
Week 3 April 21-27th
Week 4 April 28- May 4th
MAY 6th = DONE

i like music videos because each one can encompass the most creative and strange world in a few minutes, there are no limits.






this one made me a bit sick and i hated it, which is a good sign for me that something is great.

there once was a man whose skin was falling down.

he bought a sewing machine and began.


[tbc...]

last night i passed the corner where that couch was and the couch was gone.
don't tell me life doesn't work in mysterious ways.
i'm done shooting and after i documented its existence, it's free to leave.
free to leave.

the sun did not come out today and so julia decided to fight back and revamp some ideas.

after watching gummo and talking to mollie some new ideas were emerged and birthed very quickly and the fuse set off some interesting alarms.

my movie is about deteriorating relationships, can't i physically deteriorate the footage?

re-scan-rescanre-scan-rescan

that's what i've been doing all night after editing a cut of what i filmed with kaitlin and galan a few days ago, even though there was no sun.

however, my footage did not turn out that great because of that problem so i'm sitting here wondering if i should just re-edit my last film and screw with it after re-scanning it in a bunch of times and deteriorating it slowly, adding those chunks and chunks more of the different square worlds. i think i will do that because my new footage just doesn't quiet cut it for me, especially after everyone agreed that the sun was the best part. now i'm trying to add more to the story, but hey why take out the success!?

also, i would like to show this on a tv instead of the regular projector because of the whole societal tv/couch associations. (i'm sad i couldn't pick up a potato sack to drop onto that couch!)...watching other's relationships deteriorate via reality shows, films, etc. i thought commenting on this along with actual deterioration of the footage, like the deterioration of our minds as we re-watch the same scenarios over and over and over again until we are so sensitive to these little clues that film gives us, filmmakers don't have to work too hard and are able to imply things...

anyhow i'm still not too sure what the final product will be. this is probably the first time this has happened to me during this whole class. since i have restrictions on how long i have the camera for, i have to re-scan everything tonight which is not fun at all. unless i can figure out how to not use the panasonic to re-scan....
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on another note, i got inspired by my new ideas and filmed another quick movie today. we'll see how it goes and by monday i'll try to finish both. i'm really excited about this one because i finally got to use some family members and some deeper issues and all the textures worked really well in it, rescanning will help and definitely playing back on the monitor. i can always just use the monitors we have in class, they give lots of noise and deterioration.

[p.s. this idea was inspired also by sarah who is doing a project on morphing her face to look older in order to discuss issues of mortality and age. you'll see]

"Hello couch."
"Why hello, yellow bird."
"Doesn't your fabric get a little damp when it rains?"
"Yes bird, sometimes I'm cold sitting here so damp. Maybe I can borrow your feathers sometime?"
"Couch, I will sew my feathers onto you and sit in your place, the claws on my feet feeling the earth for longer than I'm used to."
"Bird, you are so wise, you fly and I sit here watching you, but I am good at my sitting and you, you are good at your flying. When you sit next to me, I feel closer to the sky and you feel closer to the ground and that is just enough to know."

bird:chirp
couch:___

[[I lie lay remind dye inside recline decline nevermind all the damn time my numb mind I forget that I can't rewind how did I even find myself sitting here]]

[some stop motioney/animated stuffs]








those videos today were amazing, each and every one in its own way

for my next peice, i will re-compose my previous world.

it turned out rather nice, i was surprised at the emotion it portrayed, each car pass felt like a slap in the face.

Anyhow, my new focus is expanding time barriers. I had lots of trouble with time dialation in FCP, so I hope after effects will be a better man for me.

It feels like this world is a bit like quantum theory, where there are multiple universes all at once. The compositing brings this out. I will try to use more squares as suggested in class, which was my original plan which I abandoned, I wanted the one big square to signify a growing cloud over her head. One huge cloud just bothering her.

I also loved the idea of how to make this a better installation, have a camera filming the camera and have that video playing right across from this one, then the viewer will be trapped in the middle space [thanks bronwyn!]. maybe i'll do that later sometime.

Anyhow, this will be about relationships, but her relationships with different objects. With her food, with her hobbies, with her fish. It will all slowly build up, with lots of internal humor, important. I'm going to have to plan this out well because I have about an hour or so to shoot it.

So we talked about triangles during our little party, uplifiting ones.
I'd like to put something on the wall as the third party, apart from the two people sitting on the couch.

This may be a story about a baby being born?
An idea baby maybe baby maybe.
Maybe just keep it as a particle cloud of insanity and other dimensions over her head.
I want to keep this video simple and not clutter it with too many happenings, however I do want to expand.


Triangle:
-me me me
-me him me
-me her me
-her her him
-him me him
-oh the possibilities

Color tones:

-Keep in black and white, high contrast
-Bright blues and pasty yellows/whites

ok just kidding that's not my video, but it was inspiring. kinda.
i mean come on, they made the universe sneeze....

i've been watching people sneeze all morning and the tension is making me sick.

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on another note, even since my "crit part1 of ideas", i've been thinking about metaphorical sneezes instead of actual sneezes.
-"make the audience feel like they just sneezed"
-"think of the dynamic graph of a sneeze...it starts low and then spikes and the sneeze and comes back down"

so i've been thinking about relationships.
they start out so good and last for a while, so good. then they start falling apart, and if they start falling apart it happens fast, just like a sneeze happens fast once it starts to get aggravated.

put it all together and what do you get?

the best part of a sneeze is that it begins as both an action and a reaction and ends with both an action and a reaction that can have an action and reaction react to it. hah. now on to the storyboarding. illustrator or hand-drawn? or photoshop collage? hummm. my science roots are tugging and it feels so good.

on another note, i would like to make a quick short film for the filmbybike festival thing that kaitlin e-mailed about.
bike like a biker. they said the shorter the better, so hey.
-the wheel is turning. the pottery wheel is making a cup that the bike wheel breaks. they were birthed from the same place.
-one leg sleeve pulled up, he bikes upside down because of trauma in the childhood years.
-bike is not there, really. the bike is his other schitzo personality. he is the bike. he lives from the bike perspective. personify a bike into a human, how would he act? he sees a helllllla hottttt chick on a bike, but then we realize his commentary is actually about how hott the bike is. haha.

one of my goals for video from now on is bringing in my science enticement into it.
repetition of my previous ideas have come upon what i think just might be my sausage.

Ωa sneeze and what entitles it.Ω
-scientifically [using after effects]
-externally [profile view of sneezing]
-before/after the sneeze implications

sneeze basics: 2 parts

prologue: catalyst for the sneeze [bright light, allergy, PREVIOUS VIDEO'S ACTION! HAH!]
1. inhale
2. exhale
epilogue: sneezes can spread disease, cause pain if you hold them back, cause uncomfortable reactions from the people around you, especially if you sneeze onto their naked skin, especially the face, especially if they happen to be yawning. a literal response to a sneeze is what you would say, like gesundheit [what i use usuallly]

hi wiki:

A sneeze (or sternutation) is a semi-autonomous, convulsive expulsion of air from the lungs. Occurs when a particle (or sufficient particles) passes through the nasal hairs and reaches the nasal mucosa. (did someone say chain reaction)This triggers the production of histamines, which reach the nerve cells in the nose, which then send a signal to the brain to initiate the sneeze, which relates the initial signal and creates a large opening of the nasal cavity, resulting in a powerful release of air and bioparticles. The reason behind the powerful nature of a sneeze is its involvement of not simply the nose and mouth, but numerous organs of the upper body - it is a reflectory response that involves the muscles of the face, throat, and chest.

Some common English onomatopoeias for the sneeze sound are achoo, atchoo, achew, and atisshoo, with the first syllable corresponding to the sudden intake of air, and the second to the sound of the sneeze.
(i love this)
A similar linguistic approach has been taken with several other languages; in French, the sound "Atchoum!" is used; in Finnish "Atsiuh!"; in Swedish "Atjo"; in German "Hatschie!"; in Polish, "Apsik!"; in Turkish, "Hapşu!"; in Italian, "Etciù!"; in Spanish "Achís!"; in Portuguese, "Atchim!"; and in Japanese, "Hakushon!". In Cypriot Greek, the word is "Apshoo!", incidentally also the name of a village, which is the cause of much mirth locally.
(in russian it's "Apch-hee!", to sneeze is "chee-hat". i sneezed= "ya cheehnool")

In Howards End, by E.M. Forster, a sneeze in polite society is "a-tissue" - a nice allusion to its respective remedy.

Traditional Responses to a Sneeze

In English-speaking countries, a common response to a sneeze by those around it is "God bless you", or more commonly just "Bless you". The origins and purpose of this tradition are unknown, and several competing explanations have been proposed over time, with the majority focusing on the idea of preventing the soul from departing one's body, or as an effort to prevent possible death due to a lethal disease such as the plague of the fourteenth century. Today, it is said mostly in the spirit of good manners.

In various other cultures, words referencing good health or a long life are used instead of "Bless you".
(this has always really bothered me about christian America! check the list below and we're the only ones that have gotta refer to something religious!)
( responses to sneezes in different languages )





i didn't write this but it was somehow inspiring:
DIALOGUE:
(caroline talks about something)
Alicia: So emily hows it going?
Emily: I'm not feeling quite as adventurous as i did on tuesday
Alicia: How were you feeling adventurous tuesday?
Emily: I was feeling like going cliff jumping
Alicia: O truly?
Emily: Extremely cliff jumping
Emily:*chuckle* i have a tickle in my nose
Alicia: Tickle it then
Emily:*tickles/picks nose*
Emily: o What if i had a little squid that came up and tickled my nose like this. And then it would have some tentacles and it would go up my nose. Can you imagine this scenario?
Alicia: Yes i ca-
Emily: Think about it think about it more carefully. Do you think the squid would like parmesan cheese if i fed it parmesan cheese tonight at 12 at the night of the strike of the hour my squid would eat parmesan and it would eat with me and it would sit at the table and i would say "squid do you like parmesan cheese?" and it would say "oo let me tickle your nose" that is all
Alicia: bye
Emily: goodbye

anti-gravity is all i can think of.
in a world where up is not an option, direction is multilateral always because there is no definition from gravitational pull.
we take gravity for granted. i don't want to do any physical up, that's too much by the horns.
what if you swallowed up instead of down, like if your mouth was located on the bottom and digestion traveled up. how would this be portrayed and still feel "light"? is this lightness societal and how far can we push to change it...

my up will be raw, stripped of physicality. it will be rawup that in any language, in any culture, in any world, you will have to really work to argue, that it is not up.

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scuba mask.
oh and trapped air, yes.

raindrops coming up looking up laying on the ground and they suddenly become huge they are all that is oppression in your mind they cut you with their wetness

a sneeze-you inhale-exhale
would you say bless you to a student during your lecture if you were a teacher?

a shadow [so light!]
this is my curl shadow.
it comes up with the sun, so slow, but so fast in the face of evolution it gets lost.

rhythm of motion being a catalyst,
direct rhythm of syllable
refrain repeat refrain brain memo fro toe

a round moon, a round mouth, a round you are, but not nearly as soon as I'd want you to be.


she wore a spoon around her neck
and doubted herself
a neck is not a
hand with fingers
she'd make the soup bowl tip.

filming went pretty good today. i had a great time with my new actor, what a lucky catch. yall tell me if you need a man for your movie in the future and i'll hook you up, he's simply splendid and just the right amount of intriguing and laughs.

on another note, i have another wonderful idea which is a lot simpler and involves sharpies and white butcher paper that i may do tomorrow depending on how many hands and how much space i can get.
oh i've figured out that it is going to be a..."SILENT" film, very literally. muahaha!

after effects is great. playing with it i have realized its powers and will utilize them to the max, they will save my butt by being versatile enough for my mouse clicking to show what it is i want to show in this short amount of time.i couldn't wait to work with it all of last quarter and now i'm simply ecstatic to build our relationship and take it all the way to the next level.

here's a link to hard candy's title sequence that has a similar layout that i will play with in animation....

woahhhh check it out a test i made today :)

this is parts of an animated masterpiece, one of the best visual narratives i've ever experienced on a screen. re-watching it made me realize how many internal space issues are brought out both in the physical realm of the visuals and internal feel of the spacing, timing, and anticipations. This animation is absolutely incredible.



on the CONTRAST, don't watch too much into this video, but the style of it definitely feels claustraphobic to me, so i may want to use a similar filming technique...




( under this cut is some brain stuff for my trailer. it's coming together slowly and i'm finding snippets work best for this, since that is what it will entail )